Actually, knowing many smart pales of mine also following the entrance exam made me a bit nervous and not confident at all. Beside the fact that I didn't make full preparation, the competitors were more than 90.000 students in Indonesia also took part in the exam. At first I thought it's okay if I'm not accepted because I already have my place in Gadjah Mada University and it already paid. But as time went by, my parents especially my dad, said that he had a big expectation at me and wish I can pass the examination. Suddenly the spirit to pass the exam became bigger than before. To make me more high-spirited, I tried to take a role model and I decided to make SHINee Bling Bling Jonghyun as my role model in this entrance exam.
At my entrance exam in Gadjah Mada University (UGM), I had Suju Donghae as my role model and I made it! Usually, I would get sleepy in the middle of doing the questions. But when I feel sleepy, I slapped my own cheek with my own hands and tell to myself, "Remember Donghae! Remember Donghae! He succeed because he never gave up and continue his work though it's very tiring! It's nothing compared to Hae oppa's hard work to finish his study and do his job as an entertainer at the same time! Prove to your parents that your idols can make you high-spirited and succeed to pass this exam!" Honestly speaking, my parents, especially my dad, always complaining about what a wasting time activities I had. "Watching Super Junior's videos and day dreaming about them is not good for you. It better for you to study for the entrance exam." I still can remember what my father said to me once. So, I did study hard and wanted to show to my dad if I didn't waste my time by watching Super Junior's videos. But on the contrary, they gave me more strength to achieve my dreams. ^^
For STAN entrance exam, I was in love (??) with Jonghyuni oppa so I decided to make him became my role model. Frankly speaking, Actually it didn't work at all. I still play around and hardly serious when I did the sample questions from the previous exam. I felt frustrated and thought, "What will my parents say about Jonghyun if I failed the test? I don't want them to say bad things about him. I can't make him (Jonghyuni oppa's name) get any disgrace words." Though I thought that way, I still couldn't concentrate to study. Finally, I decided to study little by little and not force myself. As the consequence, one night before the D-day, I recall my memories and studied hard to understand the question types.
On the D-day, I decided I WON'T answer all questions about math and FINISH English first. So, from 150 minutes, I spent 90 minutes to answer all English questions. Because there was minus point for each wrong number, I didn't answer the questions that I don't even know how to solve it. Though there were still many questions which I haven't answer, because of the time, I had to collect the answer sheet. Recognizing almost all of my smart pale also took part in this exam, I didn't expect too much to be accepted. But now, I did it! Yay~!!
If I want to look at the past, many people think that I'm smart. I myself don't really think so. I NEVER in big ten at High School, I ALWAYS had re-take for some subjects, and it was (sometimes) difficult for me to understand the materials given by the teachers. So with my story before, is it possible if I'm a lucky person because once my one of my friends said so. Or I am smart? I don't know which one is the right answer, but the only thing that I always have in mind, 'I AM A LUCKY PERSON.' :D
Alhamdulillah hirabbil'alamin~ Finally, I'm accepted at STAN and hopefully I can fulfill my parents expectation that is to be the civil servant.. :) Amiiien..